As some of you may know, i love a good meme. Especially when it breaks me out of “but i don’t have anything to write about today” blues. I noticed yesterday that i get ALOT of hits when i actually DO write a post, so i know i need to write more… So here goes:
Lately i’ve been struggling with fears–completely irrational, unfounded fears that just permeate the deepest quietest parts of me–those places i reserve for a moment of peace from my crazy brain. Guess its been working in overdrive and started to fill in some of those empty places (please keep all cracks about empty brains to yourself please)
At the top of those worries is that my Old Man will leave me for someone who has a typical kid. WHich is ridiculous on multiple levels. BUt there it is.
I should state here that this fear of being left is deep. Never knew my Dad, got cheated on by college boyfriend, you get the picture. I work on this DAILY, but it doesn’t change the irrationality of it. SOmetimes i just worry.
Which supposedly fits into my chinese horoscope–i was born year of the dog. And we worry. when i read that i threw the book away. jerks. WHat do they know about anxiety? jerkheads.
I’m also a scorpio–which should cancel all that out yeah? i mean, scorps are all serious and mystical–why would they worry? Unless their chart is almost identical to CHarles Manson (me) and they worry that they will end up convincing a bunch of people to do fucked up shit.
wow–that was 5 minutes? yikes. This is my brain. good times.